But you are free to abandon yourself to actual life and to know that living in God is another name for this abandonment, for watching the snow and walking down the street.
…You say you do not feel this abandonment right now. What do you expect to feel? It is not a feeling; it is feeling. It is not a thought; it is thinking. If it were a particular thought or feeling there could be coming into it and going out of it; but God is One and all-inclusive, and here there can be neither coming nor going, inside or outside.
…It is your real self, that has no hiding-place. Destroy the universe and it remains. No, you can’t feel it — but then how can you know anything about it at all. Because you can use it and feel its use, just as “the wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof but canst not tell whence it cometh nor whither it goeth.”
– Alan Watts. Become What Your Are.
Quote taken from Church of the Churchless